Setelah Sekian Lama

....Saya kembali.

Saya kembali dengan jiwa yang baru barangkali.

Saya kembali dengan penampilan semangat yang berlainan kali ini.

Saya kembali dengan perkongsian ilmu yang menginsafi diri.

Saya kembali....

Please wait until i feel okay...

Truly.....i have mount of things to share in here. And i keep reminding myself that i won't omit them even one. It is just...i feel that i am not that okay and not really have a 'sincere' available time to write. At this very moment, i am sitting at the coffee house and do my work which i actually intended to go to the office and do my work from there. It's Sunday. Just imagine how i feel lately....with lots of work and at the same time not having stabil mind...if i am the type of creature that is not eating and drinking...i won't be here. The hunger drove me out from my room and dragged my feet to come here. I never did this before. I hardly cook, for now. May Allah bless me in this difficult period. May Allah strengthen my heart in whatever i do. Amin...

My Best Moments with KDU

Dear readers,

I have been working with KDU for almost 5 years (another 1 month turns 5 yrs), with lots of ups and downs...as my second job exeprience (Flamingo was the first). Here i would like to make a list of best moments of me and KDU (sounds so sentimental laaarrrrr...don't get emotional ok? I am not leaving anyway - for now hehe)

• Celebrating KDU 25th Anniversary Dinner (2008) at One World Hotel.

This is half of our team of Pre-University Department (the other half sitting next to our table). Our speciality compared to other department is, we are so sepakat in doing every single thing . In that event, people could see that we were all 'men in black' and 'women in black'. Vogue, elegant and bold. That's what i can describe of my team.

We took this picture to memorize once we knew how to dance in Nigerian style with creative costume that inspired by Mr. Ben (our Nigerian colleague - far left). All clothes had brought by Ben except the kain batik that surrounded our head were mine and K.Zizah's. The picture was taken when we were in the waiting room of the hotel, before performing.

When we were on stage and became the climax event for the night!!! And as we expected (i was the one who kept saying this), we won for the best performance of the night! People can see the video in the youtube, it is good and stunning huh...! Two thumbs up guys!

• Watching the play by Pre-U students and most of then are my students! I am so proud of them and my colleague Hema (the producer). Too bad i dont have their picture. But promise to insert one when i have it.
• A Department Trip to Cameron Highlands - this will be excitingly explained in the coming entry. Tungguuuuuuuu!

So, these three are the memorable moment with my Pre-U team. Andaikata kaki ini ingin melangkah pergi, kau tetap di hati ku....

Waktu-waktu yang Mustajab untuk Berdoa

"Dua doa yang tidak pernah ditolak; doa ketika waktu azan dan doa ketika waktu hujan."

Allah memberikan setiap waktu dengan keutamaan yang berbeza-beza, di antaranya ada waktu-waktu tertentu yang sangat baik untuk berdoa, akan tetapi kebanyakan orang mensia-siakan kesempatan yang baik tersebut. Mereka menyangka bahawa seluruh waktu memiliki nilai yang sama dan tidak berbeza. Setiap muslim seharusnya memanfaatkan waktu-waktu yang utama dan mulia untuk berdoa agar mendapat kejayaan, keuntungan, kemenangan dan keselamatan. Adapun waktu-waktu mustajab tersebut antara lain ialah:

1. Sepertiga akhir malam

2. Tatkala berbuka puasa bagi orang yang berpuasa

3. Setiap selepas sembahyang fardu

4. Ketika saat perang berkecamuk

5. Sesaat ketika Hari Jumaat

6. Ketika waktu bangun tidur pada malam hari bagi orang yang sebelum tidur dalam keadaan suci dan berdhikir kepada Allah

7. Doa di antara azan dan iqamah

8. Doa ketika waktu sujud di dalam sembahyang

9. Doa saat sedang hujan

10. Ketika saat ajal tiba

11. Doa ketika Hari Arafah

"Janganlah kalian berdoa untuk diri kalian kecuali kebaikan, kerana para malaikat mengamini apa yang kamu ucapkan."

"Miss, please do something about this"

Sedang saya asyik leka buat kerja, datang seorang student...menghampiri saya dan dengan pelat Melayu he said; "Miss Yati, saya ada sesuatu nak beritahu dengan Miss Yati". Dengan hairan saya memandang muka pelajar yang innocent itu sambil berkata "what is it about?" "Kawan saya kata dia tak percaya tuhan". Saya tak tau nak tunjuk reaksi macam mana... terkejut? or takut?


This student (student A) looks Chinese. In mind, i was thinking that how nice he is because he is a Chinese and yet concern about his friend's faith. And then, we talked a little bit more then i realized that he is not a non-Muslim. He is a Muslim. His parents converted to Islam and he is actually from China. (credit goes to him as he is able to speak Malay, quite well). Feeling that he was really worried about his friend and i myself was also thinking on how can I approach this daring student, i managed to get his student ID and name, of course. (my next action would be investigating his profiles first before calling his parents, to know their background). I comforted this student and said that i will take any possibly action on this matter. Again, he looked so serious and worried. When he was about to leave my place (my not too privacy cubicle), he said "Miss, please do something about this". I nodded and smiled.


The student (yang berkata dia tak percaya tuhan) named Huzaifah (bukan nama sebenar) telah ku jumpai. (bukan jumpa orangnya tapi profile nya). Shockingly, it was stated 'spastic student' in hsi profile. Ha???? Spastic? Macam mana seorang spastic boleh masuk ke program A-Level? Okay bertenang.... i then checked with Grenall (another lecturer) who is teaching Maths for this group and Jaya (the one who counceled his parents). He is not a spastic child, but autistic. Now i understand why he was boldly claimed that he doesn't believe in God. Dia sakit.


Few days later, i bumped into the student A and told him about his friend, Huzaifah. Surprisingly, he was not really satisfied with my explanation and i could see from his face expression that he wanted me to talk directly to Huzaifah and take him back to Islam. I think he did not understand what autism is. Or maybe i was the one who don't understand? In my view, i would say that this student (let's call student B) is not aware of what he is talking about. Even in class one could see him behaving like a child, sitting far away from other people at the corner of the class and keep calling his teacher when asking for an answer. It is not normal. (and also, i'm not to reveal his SPM result in here, but how could he be accepted to the program with such a result if he is a normal student?). Okay settled. Don't have to call his parents to get detail as i myself could understand the situation.


Pertaining to my reaction of terkejut or takut....

• Definitely sesiapa sahaja akan terkejut sekiranya mendengar seseorang telah murtad (or commit apostasy) or become an apostate, secara live.


• Obviously saya takut sebab in this case, the responsibility is on me (no one else in the college, officially). Because, it's my duty to take him back to Islam (if he is really do).

The day i think that Mummy has insomnia

Amayn and Mummy in last Raya

This morning, while i was ironing my baju and tudung to work, i was listening to MHI and the topic discussed (by Elly and Mazidul) was on Insomnia. All of a sudden, saya teringat kat Mummy dan recall balik bahawa selama ni memang Mummy:

• langsung tak boleh tidur



• susah untuk tidur



• tidur hanya sekejap-sekejap



• selalu nak bersembang semasa anak-anak dah nak tidur



• buat-buat tidur padahal kakinya bergerak-gerak (and this had been realized by Lumi and Amayn, when the two of them was sleeping next to Mummy)



• cuba untuk nap di siang hari dan cepat tersedar
  

Pity my mother, she is fighting against insomnia. This might be due to:

• her medication (sesetengah ubat boleh membuatkan seseorang terangsang terhadap ubat yang diambil)



• dalam proses menopause dan telah menopause (kerana perubahan hormon)



• thinking of so many things (hal anak-anak dan sekeliling, because she is so perfectionist!)

Take note, that i am proud of her sebab anak-anak dapat mewarisi sifat-sifat keibuan dan keisterian mithali dimana kami juga akan menjadi orang yang pentingkan kesempurnaan dalam beberapa perkara :p, sometimes.

Pernah sekali saya teringat kami telah merancang untuk ke satu destinasi, dan Mummy telah terlelap di pagi itu. Sedang kami bersiap-siap, saya tak sampai hati nak mengejutkan beliau dan membiarkan sahaja beliau menikmati tidur yang sekejap itu....kesian Mummy...

The day i have to 'redha' ketentuanNya

Setiap manusia hanya merancang, hanya tuhan yang menentukan. Kita selalu sahaja mendengar pepatah tersebut dan alhamdulillah, sebagai seorang Islam, kita mampu untuk menerima setiap dugaan dan ujian dari-Nya. InsyaAllah. Percayalah, setiap apa yang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui setiap apa yang berlaku kepada hambaNya.

Marilah kita sama-sama mendekatkan diri kepada Ilahi, semoga dilimpahi rahmatNya dan marilah kita sama-sama bersyukur dengan apa yang diberi, semoga Allah menggandakan lagi nikmatNya.

Hari ini, aku merelakan dan redha dengan ketentuan Mu ya Allah. Kuatkanlah hati ini. Amin.